Now that I'm back to blogging and the such, I figure a new topic might be in order.

Like many one thing that's always kind of stuck in my mind and made me wonder is death. What's it like? Is it the end? How does it feel? All that jazz, I'd not say I'm a goth kid or spend time reading about mortality, but I feel being mortal (sucks doesn't it?) we all have to wonder at times about it.

I've not been one to care how people view me or my life, but one thing I've always worried about is my passing. I want to to be good. Not good like a heart attack during a 3 way with two super models… ok well that would be swell but I mean I want an honorable one.

There is something so captivating for me about a hero's passing. Think of the names of people who changed the world, how many of them had a tragic or heroic end? Lincoln, Alexander, Nelson, Clemente, Custer the list keeps going. Not all of them were that young at their passing but the youth factor does add to the bittersweetness of it.

It seems that western culture seems to have lost an obsession about it, more so world wide but more so westerners. Now you just die and thats that. Growing up I always read the Greek poems, epics, comedies and tragedies. Maybe that helped ingrain it for me.

Since I don't want to go too morbid here I'll skip my own wants for my passing but, I know I really don't control my own death but I want something from it. Passing in my sleep in old age is cliche and so, uninviting. Passing in your sleep you never get to face it. I like to experience new things, can't the last thing I have on earth be a new experience? I know I failed with the non morbid sorry.

I don't mind if my life is forgotten but I want my passing to be big. I have no idea why either.

To end this I'd like to share a favorite quote of mine on the matter. One that from the first time to this day it shakes me up. It's from the Iliad, my personal favorite book and one of the largest influences on humanity. Pick up a good version (expect 2000+ pages and half of that is who killed who, in graphic detail.)

"My doom has come upon me; let me not then die ingloriously and without a struggle, but let me first do some great thing that shall be told among men hereafter."
-Hector of Troy